Date:	2007-10-22 20:57
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

So today wasnt that bad,
Im at 234 lbs...

Got my new job at Burlington Coat Factory,
so Im on my feet 8 hours a day,
and Im a full time student,
So I am never thinking about food.
Its so nice for a change.

Today:
-Turkey Sandwhich
-Extra Turkey
-Spinich Dip
-Two sour dough bread

Dont know how many cals, Id say
800 at the max
maybe 900.

I dont feel guilty about it though.

xxxx

Lexxi

Date:	2007-10-11 23:44
Subject:	Goals
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

Goals--237 lbs

October 28- 227 lbs
~New shoes

November 16- 217 lbs
~Nail Polish

November 28- 212 lbs
~Trans Siberian Orchestra

December 10- 208 lbs
~Highlights

December 25- 198 lbs
~Tanning Package

January 1- 195 lbs
~Outfit for New Years

January 19- 187 lbs
~New Jeans

January 30- 178 lbs
~Shopping

February 14- 170 lbs
~Valentines Date?

February 28- 165 lbs
~Manicure & Pedicure

March 15- 160 lbs
~New Jeans

March 30- 155 lbs
~Tickets to concert



This girl is my Thinsperation

Date:	2007-10-10 22:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

Date:	2007-10-10 11:02
Subject:	Thinspo
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

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Date:	2007-09-27 10:36
Subject:	.....
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

Date:	2007-09-26 18:19
Subject:	Today...
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

Weight:237.0 lbs

I didnt do so hot today. Pretty crappy actually.
But hopefully I will still lose some by the morning.
So today Ive had:

-Alot of Pie:600 cals
-Chicken:300 cals

So for the max Id say 1000 cals.
Ugh....I think. :/

I walked 3.10 miles today on the treadmill,
really starting to get boared with that,
I jsut dont know what else to do.
Bleh...
Only burned about 252 cals

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

Purged a little this morning,
didnt get much out :( Probably will do it again later,
just to see if anything would like to come out.
Which you know, would be realy nice.
Fuck I dont know, I give up!

Date:	2007-09-25 17:23
Subject:	Thinspo
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

( Thinspo )

Date:	2007-09-25 17:14
Subject:	Today
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

So far ive had:

-Chicken w/fat free ranch: 200 cals
-Sandwhich: 450 cals
-Two green teas: 240 cals
-Diet coke w/splenda: 0 cals
-water, water, water, water, water: 0 cals

Total: 890 cals(not bad)

Ran two miles on the treadmill.
Burned 163 cals.
So had 727 cals.
Not too bad, I suppose.

Love all you girls!

P.S~Michael and I are doing good.

XXXX

♥
Lexxi

Date:	2007-09-25 17:10
Subject:	Nicole Richie:Before && After
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

Date:	2007-09-24 16:30
Subject:	ugh...
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious

Date:	2007-09-18 23:43
Subject:	Thinspo
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

( Thinspo )

Date:	2007-09-18 23:21
Subject:	Goals...
Security:	Public
Mood:	creative

Date:	2007-09-12 20:38
Subject:	Crappy!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed

So Michael broke up with me last night.
I hadnt eaten in 42 hours then I had a bowl
of ceral and some wheat thins
then I ran a mile.
Only burned 80 cals, but I have no energy
right now. All I feel like doing is crying.
I hate it when him and I brake up.
ANd he only broke up with me because I dont
trust him, because of my past with other guys.
I feel so bad in not being able to trust him,
but he knew what he was getting into when we started dating.
What hurts the most is he asked me to marry him
two days ago, and then last night he dumps me.
Gah! I hate boys. All they do is make me hurt.

Hope everyone else is having a better day!

xxxx

<3
Lexxi

Date:	2007-09-11 23:18
Subject:	FUCK ME!
Security:	Public
Mood:	irritated

Date:	2007-09-11 16:37
Subject:	Dont Eat!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	determined

Age: 16
Height: 5'5.5
Highest Weight: 140
Lowest Weight: 94..
Current Weight: 100. Its been changing everyday, no matter what I eat.
Goal Weight : 0 pounds. Aka, until I feel thin, or someone forces me into a hospital.

Fave food : None. It all makes me feel like shit,
Fave Drink : Diet Coke
Fave Exercise : walking
Thinspo : Bones.
Where do you slip up? school.
When did it start? when I was 12.
Why did it start? Emotional trauma. Dont ask. I wont tell.

Does Anyone know? My boyfriend and my best friend
Do you want help? Yes. I do.
Diet pills? None
fave binge food: Bagels and cookies.
Fave dieting food: Slimfast.
How many cals do you consume a day? God, it changes so much that i do even know anymore.

What tips do you use to lose weight? Its called starvation.
What do you see when you look in the mirror? An ugly, stupid fat girl.
Are you in a relationship? yes. for 8 months this saturday.
If so, Do they pressure you to be thin? He pressures me to GAIN weight...ew...
Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? Fat.
Are you depressed? Yes.
Do you self harm? Yeah.

Ever tried to commit suicide? Yeah.
Ever been to a psychologist?? therapist?? Yes....
Fave song? "Everything Changes" by Staind. Not an ED song. but it a good song.

Date:	2007-09-09 08:13
Subject:	Blah!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed

Date:	2007-09-01 14:11
Subject:	Goal
Security:	Public
Mood:	cold

Date:	2007-08-31 12:09
Subject:	Ugh
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

Its 12:00pm and I weigh 231.4. Yay! That makes me happy!

♥
Lexxi

Date:	2007-08-11 20:18
Subject:	texting...
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious